So,
my husband and I fight,
like hard-core fight
maybe once every two weeks or so.
And it can get ugly, but it tends
to resolve itself so we end up letting it go.
But I want to say around a week ago
we got in a fight
and before I explain it to you
here are some facts of life
I hate 3D things. It feels like it is flying at my face.
I hate whales. This stems from a very very young
viewing of Pinnochio and the whale from it (monstro)
in both the disney and the european (?) version
are firmly cemented as things of terror in my mind. I also
hate murky water and sharks.
The Life of Pi commercial has a whale at the end of it. It looks like
it is coming at the screen. It also involves a storm with murky waters.
I've also seen this commercial about 5 to 6 times all the way through.
Also, I feel physically ill when I see whales.
All of these things my husband knows.
Also, we both have 3Ds'. I use mine a lot less than he does.
So, in that light, a week ago, he handed me his 3Ds
and tells me to watch this video, it is really cool!
I get about 15 seconds in only to realize it is the Life of Pi trailer
and I start to get really REALLY pissed. I mean
it isn't like I haven't told him MULTIPLE times
about the paragraph above.
So I shove it back at him, because I don't want to see
this commercial.
He starts yelling at me, saying that the whale is only in
the last 20 seconds.
I started yelling at him, asking him if he's forgotten all my other issues.
This fight ended with him asking me when I could go back to therapy
and then saying he was sorry I had so many issues.
I don't think he has any idea
how long those words have stayed with me this week.
I'm pretty sure that in my mind I'll be hearing those words
for a long time.
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Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Sunday, November 18, 2012
150th Post
In honor of this being my 150th post, which is crazy, I'm going to write something that will probably make me lose sleep for a while. I'll be writing about my top fears and what I believe is the underlying causes and whatnots of them. I struggle with them still these days.
So to start off,
what inspired me to write about this was a recent movie I saw called Sinister. I have the ability to push back most thing that scare me but this movie in particular has been really REALLY chapping my ass. In any case, it definitely brought some of my more primeval fears to the surface.
To begin with, a striking white face with dark deep set eyes is
always a terrifying sight for me. Since the main villain fits this exact description,
I had a horrible time watching the movie without screaming every two seconds
and hiding my face the whole time. Oh, yeah. Super brave.
In line with this, I find water to be fascinating and terrifying at the same time. I love how water feels, I'm very comfortable being under the water for long periods of time, however I have limits. I love pools and most clear bodies of water. I feel very very uncomfortable around dark or murky bodies of water. I've had two near drowning experience, both of which made me very afraid to be in a pool with other people. It takes a lot of trust for me to feel okay being near to anyone while in a pool. I can generally keep my cool around pools, at least outwardly. But walking by a lake makes me feel shaky and afraid.
In relation to this, I am deathly afraid of sharks and whales. There are exceptions, which are pretty weird, as I love killer whales but am afraid of blue whales. I think all this results from the damn Monstro Blue Whale Thing from Pinnochio when I was little. Horrifying and horrified. I hate things with dark eyes and big pointy teeth and wide open mouths. I'm writing this during the day so I don't have to freak out the rest of the night.
I am afraid of clowns. This has been real since I was around three. I have always known what the Pennywise Tim Curry clown looks like, but I only saw the movie this year. I screamed a lot until he turned into a spider. I loved the book. It is fantastic but I am terrified whenever I read it.
Darkness is frightening to me but I find that I am able to walk around in it quite well. I have some anxiety but it isn't too bad.
150 posts. Now, onward to greater things!
So to start off,
what inspired me to write about this was a recent movie I saw called Sinister. I have the ability to push back most thing that scare me but this movie in particular has been really REALLY chapping my ass. In any case, it definitely brought some of my more primeval fears to the surface.
To begin with, a striking white face with dark deep set eyes is
always a terrifying sight for me. Since the main villain fits this exact description,
I had a horrible time watching the movie without screaming every two seconds
and hiding my face the whole time. Oh, yeah. Super brave.
In line with this, I find water to be fascinating and terrifying at the same time. I love how water feels, I'm very comfortable being under the water for long periods of time, however I have limits. I love pools and most clear bodies of water. I feel very very uncomfortable around dark or murky bodies of water. I've had two near drowning experience, both of which made me very afraid to be in a pool with other people. It takes a lot of trust for me to feel okay being near to anyone while in a pool. I can generally keep my cool around pools, at least outwardly. But walking by a lake makes me feel shaky and afraid.
In relation to this, I am deathly afraid of sharks and whales. There are exceptions, which are pretty weird, as I love killer whales but am afraid of blue whales. I think all this results from the damn Monstro Blue Whale Thing from Pinnochio when I was little. Horrifying and horrified. I hate things with dark eyes and big pointy teeth and wide open mouths. I'm writing this during the day so I don't have to freak out the rest of the night.
I am afraid of clowns. This has been real since I was around three. I have always known what the Pennywise Tim Curry clown looks like, but I only saw the movie this year. I screamed a lot until he turned into a spider. I loved the book. It is fantastic but I am terrified whenever I read it.
Darkness is frightening to me but I find that I am able to walk around in it quite well. I have some anxiety but it isn't too bad.
150 posts. Now, onward to greater things!
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
Sweet misery
Yelp is my new favorite site. There are some truly hilarious reviews on restaurants and everything else on this site. Why was I not told about this site sooner?
People are hilarious. Why do you waste your time writing terrible reviews? Also, if you misspell every other word, I highly suspect your intentions are simply to annoy readers like me, rather than to actually help people find good restaurants. It is a fantastic place to bitch about all your terrible experiences and reading them is just plain funny.
Small things about me
I'm a horribly messy person. Psychologically, I know it is still just me getting back at my parents but I just can't make it stop. I'm working on it though.
8 things about my body
1. My hair color is dark brown, but I've been adding red to it for the last 6 months. I feel so lovely and glamorous with these colors. I may have a love/hate relationship with my body, but my hair makes me feel so beautiful.
2. I love having painted nails. I hate subtle colors, I'd rather have deep red or black on my nails.
3. My body currently hates sea food. It is intolerant, not allergic, but it is killing me because sea food is my very favorite of all the foods.
4. My skin has stretch marks from being pregnant with twins. Lots of them. Mostly they just have an odd texture, but they don't bother me, except for the ones on my upper arms.
5. I love my ears.
6. After being pregnant, my feet hate high heels.
7. Besides stretch marks, I have almost no scars.
8. Rather than self mutilate by cutting, my issues tend to manifest by me biting my lips continuously or scratching my head until I bleed. Incidentally, this can make bathing or washing my hair or eating extremely painful. I've never actually told a professional about these habits. I should probably work on that.
3 facts about my personality
1. I am an introvert. I draw my power from being by myself. I love people and parties and what have you but I am so tired by the end that I generally need time to recharge.
2. I don't deal well with bullshit. I tend to react strongly when I feel people are screwing with me. I can be extremely temperamental.
3. Now that I've said that, though, it has to be said that I will put up with any crazy from my family. My boundaries are terrible when it comes to relations, but I'm working on it.
5 Weird things that I like.
Okay, to clarify, liking anything is weird.
1. Horror anything. Books, movies, video games, art etc. I get so fucking terrified of everything, but I love it anyway.
2. Pita Chips. New York Style. OH MY GAWSH. My favorite snack EVER.
3. Tumblr. I love tumblr. I'm addicted. It is so sad. But I love it. It makes me snort so much.....my computer screen needs to be cleaned....
4. Star wars online game. The reason this is weird is that the movies annoy me SO MUCH. But the game is awesome, I like that I can be bad AND good and LIGHTSABERS! YAY!
5. Feminist websites. This is weird because I was raised a super conservative Catholic Christian. But I love these sites. Feministing, Feministe and Shakesville are my favorite. I check them every day. They are wonderful and fantastic.
and finally a weird one 6. Porn. Let me clarify, there is a shitload of porn I find problematic. And by shitload, I mean nearly all of it. However, I love reading well written erotica (Random literotica stuff, for the win) and I've seen about 10 actual videos that I'm okay with. So there ya go.
I am deeply terrified of spiders, clowns and whales.
My favorite thing to do is a toss up between reading, sex and spending time with my husband.
I don't have a gender preference when it comes to sexual partners. I do prefer to be in a relationship before I do things of a sexual nature
I love being married. There have been some extremely difficult parts and I have no doubt that there are more to come. I've only been married for a year however I've been in a relationship with my person since 2009. We've had more than our fair share of difficulties.
I can see myself going to jail for a multitude of reasons. I assume they would be for self defense.
The curse word I use the most is fuck.
Talk to you guys later.
Love
Hellkitten
People are hilarious. Why do you waste your time writing terrible reviews? Also, if you misspell every other word, I highly suspect your intentions are simply to annoy readers like me, rather than to actually help people find good restaurants. It is a fantastic place to bitch about all your terrible experiences and reading them is just plain funny.
Small things about me
I'm a horribly messy person. Psychologically, I know it is still just me getting back at my parents but I just can't make it stop. I'm working on it though.
8 things about my body
1. My hair color is dark brown, but I've been adding red to it for the last 6 months. I feel so lovely and glamorous with these colors. I may have a love/hate relationship with my body, but my hair makes me feel so beautiful.
2. I love having painted nails. I hate subtle colors, I'd rather have deep red or black on my nails.
3. My body currently hates sea food. It is intolerant, not allergic, but it is killing me because sea food is my very favorite of all the foods.
4. My skin has stretch marks from being pregnant with twins. Lots of them. Mostly they just have an odd texture, but they don't bother me, except for the ones on my upper arms.
5. I love my ears.
6. After being pregnant, my feet hate high heels.
7. Besides stretch marks, I have almost no scars.
8. Rather than self mutilate by cutting, my issues tend to manifest by me biting my lips continuously or scratching my head until I bleed. Incidentally, this can make bathing or washing my hair or eating extremely painful. I've never actually told a professional about these habits. I should probably work on that.
3 facts about my personality
1. I am an introvert. I draw my power from being by myself. I love people and parties and what have you but I am so tired by the end that I generally need time to recharge.
2. I don't deal well with bullshit. I tend to react strongly when I feel people are screwing with me. I can be extremely temperamental.
3. Now that I've said that, though, it has to be said that I will put up with any crazy from my family. My boundaries are terrible when it comes to relations, but I'm working on it.
5 Weird things that I like.
Okay, to clarify, liking anything is weird.
1. Horror anything. Books, movies, video games, art etc. I get so fucking terrified of everything, but I love it anyway.
2. Pita Chips. New York Style. OH MY GAWSH. My favorite snack EVER.
3. Tumblr. I love tumblr. I'm addicted. It is so sad. But I love it. It makes me snort so much.....my computer screen needs to be cleaned....
4. Star wars online game. The reason this is weird is that the movies annoy me SO MUCH. But the game is awesome, I like that I can be bad AND good and LIGHTSABERS! YAY!
5. Feminist websites. This is weird because I was raised a super conservative Catholic Christian. But I love these sites. Feministing, Feministe and Shakesville are my favorite. I check them every day. They are wonderful and fantastic.
and finally a weird one 6. Porn. Let me clarify, there is a shitload of porn I find problematic. And by shitload, I mean nearly all of it. However, I love reading well written erotica (Random literotica stuff, for the win) and I've seen about 10 actual videos that I'm okay with. So there ya go.
I am deeply terrified of spiders, clowns and whales.
My favorite thing to do is a toss up between reading, sex and spending time with my husband.
I don't have a gender preference when it comes to sexual partners. I do prefer to be in a relationship before I do things of a sexual nature
I love being married. There have been some extremely difficult parts and I have no doubt that there are more to come. I've only been married for a year however I've been in a relationship with my person since 2009. We've had more than our fair share of difficulties.
I can see myself going to jail for a multitude of reasons. I assume they would be for self defense.
The curse word I use the most is fuck.
Talk to you guys later.
Love
Hellkitten
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Starting more Posts
Hi, my name is: Megan
Never in my life have I been: out of the country, to a club, able to take a road trip, seen blue water, able to enjoy cold weather.
The one person/people who can drive me nuts is/are: my brother. I love him to DEATH but we are a true sibling pair....and we are both attention whores at times, which does not help at all.
High school: interesting. Painful in lots of ways. Very informative, but not in a learning way.
When I’m nervous: my face turns bright bright red. According to someone, my hair does too.
The last song I listened to was: Somewhere with You by Kenny Chesney.
If I were to get married right now my best man/maid of honor: Probably Gwen or Hinna.
My hair is: wavy, brown and mid-back length with red and gold natural highlights.
When I was 5: I had a weiner dog named alex.
Last Christmas: My first with the twins. It was fun and hard and somewhat disconcertingly different.
I should be..: Not doing this.
When I look down I see: hands that are beautiful, breasts that are much larger and look alien on my body, a larger tummy from having twins and lots of stretch marks. This is the first time in my life I've looked at my body and not seen beautiful.
The happiest recent event was: toss up between my boys smiles these days and Katie's LBT party. I love how free I felt there. Heheheh
If I were a character on ‘Friends’ I’d be: I don't know. I've honestly never seen it.
By this time next year: Nursing school, ojala.
My current gripe is: I'm always tired and I can't find my effing pills.
I have a hard time understanding: people who like chicken more than beef, the appeal of hipster men, the appeal of shows like the O.C and most reality TV, why I can't stop watching the bachelor.
There’s this girl I know that: is an extremely insecure person currently.
I like it when you: call me for lunch or when you get out of work. Even when I can't talk, it means you are thinking about me. And that's pretty awesome.
If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be: My mom and Michael.
The thing I want to buy: season 2 of Canivale, more charmed, buffy books and lots of hot cheetoes!
If you visited the place I was born: you’d be at the right hospital. In the perfect medical center to be sick.
If you spent the night at my house: You’d probably not get a lot of sleep and be horrified by the mess of my room, but we’d spend all night talking. We’d exchange books, and watch Grey’s Anatomy or Buffy.
I’d stop my wedding if: I found out he’d cheated. Or alternately, if someone came out with a gun. Then I’d whip out my gun that I fully plan on hiding in my skirt and shoot the shit out of them.
The world could do without: mudwhompers. Jersey shore. A LOT of anime. Britney Spears. Orange nail polish.
I’d rather lick the belly of a cockroach than: holy fucking shit that sounds horrific.
Most recent thing I’ve bought myself: Sexy black FM (extra points if you know what that means ) S&M Lady Gaga leather pumps. Big hoop earrings. The Repo Man soundtrack.
Most recent thing someone else bought me: Cokes and some awesome gum.
My middle name is: Tired.
In the morning I: am trying to feed children quickly and going back to sleep for an hour or two.
The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are: whales, except I fucking hate whales. So dolphins.
Once, at a bar: technically and under in a court of law, I’d swear I’ve never been to a bar. And I haven’t, I’ve only ever been to restaurants with bars in them.
Last night I was: trying to sleep, eating, and watching OZ, my new show. Its dark and twisty, I love it.
There’s this guy I know who: el tiene mi Corazon por todo tiempo.
If I was an animal I’d be: some kind of cat. I’m a hunter at heart. Lots of affection but lots of capacity for cruelty as well.
A better name for me would be: I’d love to be Angel.
Tomorrow I am: all my tomorrows this week, I’m relaxing. And then after that comes planning for school, jobs and wedding.
Tonight I am: ;) but really, I’m going to sleep
My birthday is: in May. :-)
Never in my life have I been: out of the country, to a club, able to take a road trip, seen blue water, able to enjoy cold weather.
The one person/people who can drive me nuts is/are: my brother. I love him to DEATH but we are a true sibling pair....and we are both attention whores at times, which does not help at all.
High school: interesting. Painful in lots of ways. Very informative, but not in a learning way.
When I’m nervous: my face turns bright bright red. According to someone, my hair does too.
The last song I listened to was: Somewhere with You by Kenny Chesney.
If I were to get married right now my best man/maid of honor: Probably Gwen or Hinna.
My hair is: wavy, brown and mid-back length with red and gold natural highlights.
When I was 5: I had a weiner dog named alex.
Last Christmas: My first with the twins. It was fun and hard and somewhat disconcertingly different.
I should be..: Not doing this.
When I look down I see: hands that are beautiful, breasts that are much larger and look alien on my body, a larger tummy from having twins and lots of stretch marks. This is the first time in my life I've looked at my body and not seen beautiful.
The happiest recent event was: toss up between my boys smiles these days and Katie's LBT party. I love how free I felt there. Heheheh
If I were a character on ‘Friends’ I’d be: I don't know. I've honestly never seen it.
By this time next year: Nursing school, ojala.
My current gripe is: I'm always tired and I can't find my effing pills.
I have a hard time understanding: people who like chicken more than beef, the appeal of hipster men, the appeal of shows like the O.C and most reality TV, why I can't stop watching the bachelor.
There’s this girl I know that: is an extremely insecure person currently.
I like it when you: call me for lunch or when you get out of work. Even when I can't talk, it means you are thinking about me. And that's pretty awesome.
If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be: My mom and Michael.
The thing I want to buy: season 2 of Canivale, more charmed, buffy books and lots of hot cheetoes!
If you visited the place I was born: you’d be at the right hospital. In the perfect medical center to be sick.
If you spent the night at my house: You’d probably not get a lot of sleep and be horrified by the mess of my room, but we’d spend all night talking. We’d exchange books, and watch Grey’s Anatomy or Buffy.
I’d stop my wedding if: I found out he’d cheated. Or alternately, if someone came out with a gun. Then I’d whip out my gun that I fully plan on hiding in my skirt and shoot the shit out of them.
The world could do without: mudwhompers. Jersey shore. A LOT of anime. Britney Spears. Orange nail polish.
I’d rather lick the belly of a cockroach than: holy fucking shit that sounds horrific.
Most recent thing I’ve bought myself: Sexy black FM (extra points if you know what that means ) S&M Lady Gaga leather pumps. Big hoop earrings. The Repo Man soundtrack.
Most recent thing someone else bought me: Cokes and some awesome gum.
My middle name is: Tired.
In the morning I: am trying to feed children quickly and going back to sleep for an hour or two.
The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are: whales, except I fucking hate whales. So dolphins.
Once, at a bar: technically and under in a court of law, I’d swear I’ve never been to a bar. And I haven’t, I’ve only ever been to restaurants with bars in them.
Last night I was: trying to sleep, eating, and watching OZ, my new show. Its dark and twisty, I love it.
There’s this guy I know who: el tiene mi Corazon por todo tiempo.
If I was an animal I’d be: some kind of cat. I’m a hunter at heart. Lots of affection but lots of capacity for cruelty as well.
A better name for me would be: I’d love to be Angel.
Tomorrow I am: all my tomorrows this week, I’m relaxing. And then after that comes planning for school, jobs and wedding.
Tonight I am: ;) but really, I’m going to sleep
My birthday is: in May. :-)
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