Questions

New meds for a week
which means life has gone
from downward spiral and
upward climb
to perpetual low point boredom.

My desires remain the same
but more difficult to access,
damped, somehow, by
medications and disappointment
bad sleep and reality television
I am so tired
but why can I not sleep?

Why is there never a purring cat
when I need comfort?
Why is my room always a mess
and why is it always too hot or too cold?
Why is it so hard to be kind
to sleep well
to concentrate on anything that requires
more than a small percentage of my attention?

What is wrong with me?