"You can't take a picture of this. It's already gone."

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Day 3- Drugs and Alcohol

Discuss my views of drugs and alcohol.

Sooo...at my brothers school, they are teaching him that alcohol is a drug. I find that interesting.

Personal views on drugs first. As far as illegal substances go, I've only seen someone on pot and their lack of control was pretty frightening at the time. People consider m*rijuana (changing the name to protect the me from pot searching people) to be the most harmless drug, however, if it contributes to people's inability to control themselves, which is what I've seen, than it is indeed dangerous. Driving while under the influence of pot is dangerous. I had a boyfriend total his car while driving under the influence. Not cool. Pretty scary, actually.

I've seen firsthand effects of cocaine on the lymbic system. I'm not a fan of drugs. I hatehatehatehate them. A lot.

Alcohol...I guess I can say that I don't understand what pleasure people derive from drinking. I'm not someone who wants to drink to forget, I don't like the feeling of being buzzed and the taste makes my head ache and my stomach feel nauseous. I have only had a few that I consider even remotely good tasting, but in the end, I derive the same pleasure from drinking a fruity drink that I do from deriving a coke... except that I don't pay near as much for a coke, nor can I get drunk and run people or myself off the road when I drink one! Perks all around....

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Day 2- Where I want to be in 10 years.

At first I thought, I want to be a Rogue slayer.

And then I thought I could just be the Slayer.

But then I thought, I could be Death! And never die! Oh win.
But then I rewatched Buffy and decided to be Willow the Witch instead.

Damn, it's gonna take a while to be a nurse.....

Monday, March 28, 2011

Day 1

Discuss your current relationship.

My relationship. Well, I'm engaged to a great guy and we have twins.

Because we're a young, unmarried couple with 2 children, we have problems. Although, quite honestly, I think that if we didn't have problem, it'd be pretty weird.
The best example I can think of of what kind of couple we are is that last night we watched Sweeney Todd and played Super Mario Smash Bros. and Mario Kart on the Wii. We laugh hysterically and my profanity was increased by how utterly terrible I was on the Wii.

Our relationship, while incredibly difficult because of various self imposed problems/blessings (living with parents, TWINS, lack of a job (me) etc), however, together, we are perfect. And by perfect, I mean we fight like cats and dogs, make up like best friends and support each other well. He's the first person I call with good or bad news and my last call at night. He busts his ass for me and the kids. When he isn't at work, he's at my house, helping with the kids. He's a great daddy.
Before we had kids, he was my best friend. He was my new years kiss for three years running, even though we'd only dated a year and a half. He proved my gut instinct right. He grew a beard for me. My Lord of the Rings obsession and his Star Wars love gives us great chemistry. As far as music goes, our only common ground is what musicals we like...0.o

He is the handsomest guy in the world. He went to the beach with me. The first time we dated he called my parents and talked to them (which thoroughly cemented in my head what a different guy he was). He makes me want to be a better person. He also puts up with my swearing, helps me be neater, washes the dishes and I can't WAIT to marry him....Only 565 days to go !

Any hoo, as things go, especially considering the difficult circumstances, we have a great relationship. :)

These photos are courtesy of Shutterkey Photography.

Please God, Let Me Do This....

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Mad Men

Dear Mad Men,

I'm only a little while in to the second season and I'm ashamed to admit that I'm hooked. As a part-time feminist, I'm incredibly ashamed to say that you are so damn PRETTY that I almost find myself overlooking the misogynistic bullshit that pervades most of you. Also, Don Draper and Joan (Christina Hedricks), as well as Betty (January Jones) are just such eye candy that I can't look away. Damn it.

I think Don is an asshole, but at the same time he plays it perfectly so you feel horribly for him at the same time. How is it possible to like a character that drinks, smokes and sleeps with TONS of women constantly? While married? What the eff?

Now Peggy....hmm. I like her best, I think. She represents the ideal, kind of. She messes up, messes around, a little, but she's sassy and doesn't apologize when she doesn't really care. She's a lapsed catholic and she smart and funny. But mostly smart. I think she's pretty. She doesn't give a shit what most girls think about her but she manages to truly care for Don Draper without getting sexual.

Joan is a hellcat. Her attitude is what I aspired to have during high school and I'm ashamed to admit it still pops out every once in a while when I'm angry or tired or talking to my fiance. She's gorgeous and extremely snarky and yummy.

Anyway, please keep this show going because I've developed crushes on most of the characters. And the clothes. OH GAWD, THE CLOTHES. And the shoes. And the undies. :)


ps. Grey's Anatomy came on this thursday and blew. my. mind.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

What I want

This is my favorite design of a witchy woman.

There are several things I'd like soon. I'm saving money for them. Next payday, they will be mine!!


This photo is from Gala Darling.

I love these shoes! I should have the money to buy them by Thursday. I plan on wearing them for my wedding reception and then as often as possible following this. Even though my wedding colors are are red and white, screw it, I'm sooo in love with these shoes. I'll be wearing them for ever!

Next up.

this has been taken from here. I claim NO credit, I am receiving NO money for this picture, because, guess what? I just posted the picture. It isn't mine.

Moving on, I'd really like a deck of tarot cards. Apart from pretty artwork, I find readings to be fun and hilarious and I'm in the process of learning how to. It seems to be a useful talent and a fun hobby. I've seen them selling for around 10 dollars at Half Priced Books.

I'm super excited!

These two things are my new babies! Also, Grey's Anatomy returns next week with their musical episode, I think. Or, never mind, March 31st. Well, fuck. I need some Grey's, dammit! I watched all 9 seasons of Scrubs and while it was hilarious, it was NOT my Grey's.

I was so excited to go out tonight and it just got totally fucked over. Damn it.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Still I Rise

Still I Rise
Maya Angelou

You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I’ll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
‘Cause I walk like I’ve got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I’ll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops,
Weakened by my soulful cries?

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don’t you take it awful hard
‘Cause I laugh like I’ve got gold mines
Diggin’ in my own backyard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I’ll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I’ve got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history’s shame
I rise
Up from a past that’s rooted in pain
I rise
I’m a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.

Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that’s wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.

Many looks of a HellKitten

This is my kitten. He likes to take showers with me. He is disgustingly cute and cuddly and when I move out, I fully plan on stealing him.

Vamp face.

This is last easter. I'm holding a bear dog rottweiler puppy. I say all that to say this.

She is a beastly rottweiler now. And she still hugs me like in the picture and sits on my lap. And since she weighs about 80 lbs, it is not near as much fun as you might expect.

My fiance took this photo. I was actually doing a photo shoot for him, and now that I've actually wrote that, I realize how weird that sounds. BUT, in his defense, the new duster was awesome and if I'd gotten one I'd totally want a photo shoot to go with it too.
Anyhoo, I was running towards him and he was like STOP! MUST HAVE CAMERA.
And made me re-run, because he liked that running look so much. I'm shocked at how good they look. This is my favorite, it looks so carefree.

This is my day job.

I'm kidding, but I wish it were. I'd be a great assassin. Anyway, semi-professionally done photo shoot, but it's only semi because I'm not a real model. :)

THIS is how to show off a car. I chose the least provocative photo in this group of pictures, because, hey, the internet is forever and my dad reads this blog occasionally. I don't look happy, but it was one of those perfect fall days.

This was the beginning. Or nearish to the beginning of the second time we dated. Amazing day with the girls and Mike.

This is my awkward come-hither picture. I can't BELIEVE how much this picture makes me laugh, mostly because on facebook, I had an ex comment about how the only thing he'd complain about in this picture was the bed.

This is the first photo I can remember taking of myself. I think I had just transferred from private to public school for the first time in freshman year and judging by the look on my face, I was feeling particularly emo that day. I took that picture on my first phone and I'm still surprised that the camera on my phone was so good.

Anyway, even if I look all creepy and whatnot, I love this picture.

Bad picture, amazing memory. Night before Scottish Festival, couldn't sleep, I was so excited.
The next day I spent all day with my best friends, my almost boyfriends and danced a wonderfully romantic dance. I also grew much closer with lots of people. It was an epic day.

Also, I could swirl my skirt. At my wedding, this dance will be recreated. OH HELLS YEA.

The day after graduation. New car, no makeup, no sleep and soooooo happy to be done.

First dance of the freshman year. OH MY GOD THAT SHOWER CURTAIN.

Anyway, I seriously thought I was hot stuff. And my stockings were totally ruined that night from all the barefoot dancing I did. Retrospectively, I think that I should have worn a dancing dress, not a standing dress.

Interesting day. Almost drowned.

Modeling with younger cousins

The inspiration for this post is from Gala Darling. She is my new discovery and although she's been around since 2008, her site just blows my mind. Her radical self love is inspirational and I love her. In a quiet way. <3>

Wednesday, March 16, 2011


O kitten.

How I love you.

I effing hate cleaning my room.

Oh well, to the trenches.

And what trenches they are!