Saturday, September 3, 2011
Friday, July 22, 2011
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
you alone can grant the grace of consolation.
You alone have the power to make me sad,
to make me happy or to console me…
And the greater irony is that my love
then turned to such insanity
that the one thing it desired above all else
was the one thing it put irrevocably beyond its reach
in that one instant when, at your command,
I changed my habit along with my heart
to show that my body along with my heart
belonged only to you.
I never wanted anything in you
but you alone,
nothing of what you have
but you yourself,
never a marriage, never a dowry,
never any pleasure, any purpose of my own—
as you well know—
but only yours.
~Heloise, in her letter to Peter Abelard
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Friday, June 10, 2011
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Monday, April 25, 2011
Friday, April 22, 2011
Monday, April 18, 2011
Friday, April 15, 2011
Monday, April 11, 2011
Friday, April 8, 2011
Day 9- What I hope my future will be like.
Well obviously I hope it’s a pleasant one. I hope that I continue to be friends with the same tight knit group of girls I currently am with now. I hope that my wedding is wonderful and happy and full of fun, friends and music. I hope that I’ll stop having such depressing feelings and start feeling normal again. I hope to work at a good job in a hospital and to go through nursing school fairly quickly.
And I hope to forget parts of the last 5 years. To stop feeling regret and sadness and live for the moment.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Day 08- A moment where I felt most satisfied with myself.
I was happy here. The weather was perfect, I was with my best friends and I felt totally un self-conscious. It was a wonderful trip.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
April 20 - May 20
Taurus, the second sign of the zodiac, is all about reward. Unlike the Aries love of the game, Taurus loves the rewards of the game. Well, gosh, that's a little awkward. Think physical pleasures and material goods, for those born under this sign revel in delicious excess. They are also a tactile lot, enjoying a tender, even sensual, touch. Yep, if you know me, you know it's ALL about the texture.Taurus adores comfort and likes being surrounded by pleasing, soothing things.Give me my blankie and a good pillow and I'm a happy camper. Along these lines, they also favor a good meal and a fine wine. Good food is wonderful. I hate wine with a flaming passion, so no, not really. The good life in all its guises, whether it's the arts or art of their own making (yes, these folks are artistic as well), is heaven on Earth to the Taurus-born. I guess I'm kind of artsy. I revel in music. Is that accurate?
It's the Bull that serves as the Taurus's mascot, and along with that comes the expectation that these folks are bull-headed and stubborn. SHUT UP MIKE. Yes, they are. Hey, this sign has a Fixed Quality attached to it after all, so expect that things will occasionally grind to a halt. That said, Taurus doesnÕt start out with the intention of getting stuck. I'm actually quite flexible. They simply want to get things done, and it's that steady, dogged persistence that winds up being viewed as stubbornness. Bulls are actually among the most practical and reliable members of the zodiac, and they are happy to plod along, as it were, in pursuit of their goals. I am practical somewhat but I'm also optimistic, dammit! The good news for Bulls is that once they get to the finish line, they'll swaddle themselves in material goods. JERK. A self-indulgent beast? Perhaps, but if you toiled as laboriously as these folks do, you'd need some goodies, too.
Taurus is ruled by Venus, a lovely goddess who didn't deny herself many things. In ancient Roman mythology, Venus was the Goddess of Love, Beauty and Pleasure, and Taurus has pretty much taken up where she left off. Bulls are fond of all things pretty, whether it's in their home, at a museum or on the stage.This is painfully accurate. Aesthetics are, well, beautiful. Mad Men and Carnivale, wot? Life as one sweet pas de deux is how the Taurus-born like it. To onlookers, this may look like so much materialism and blessed excess, but Bulls really aren't interested in living without beauty in their lives. Beauty to the Bull also comes in the way of a happy home life, one that includes a partner and a stable relationship.This is soooo true about me.
Taurus values harmony in their personal lives, so they'll work hard on keeping their mate happy. No, I like making HIM work to be happy.The Bull's penchant for sensual pleasures, of course, can only help things along! I'm not even gonna comment on this. Bulls can also be the sappiest of sentimentalists.*hangs head* Will all this overweening attention to their mate turn a Bull into a possessive mess? Probably not, although these folks do have to manage their tendency to latch on a bit tight. *whips out handcuffs*At the end of the day, however, TaurusÕs are true romantics and loyal to the core. Agreed.
The Element associated with Taurus is Earth. No pie-in-the-sky for these practical folks, since they'd much rather be on terra firma. Bulls tend toward conservatism (a phrase I use frequently), and this is often seen in their day-to-day behavior. No far-out schemes (that's Air) or shrieking ultimatums (more like Fire) this part is less than accurate, I've been known to scream ultimatums, obscenities and all sorts of fun things here. Taurus much prefers to take each day slowly and steadily and work toward their ultimate goal. Along these lines, those born under this sign are happy to stick with their projects until they have reached a successful conclusion. hmphThey are also extremely patient and dependable along the way. Does that sound earthy enough? The only kink in this well-oiled chain is the heckler in the gallery that tries to upbraid the Bull. These folks may not have a hair-trigger temper, but it's short enough.This is straight up true. You fuck with me, I'm pretty aggressive. Bulls in a hissy fit can get pretty argumentative, but eventually they'll calm down and come back to center, since these folks would much rather be Zen. True. You can talk me down.The Earth in this sign does tend to act as a balancing mechanism so that things never get truly out of hand. For every one person who considers the Bull a pain, there are two who will say 'No way!' and happily take the Taurus' gentle charms any day.
Seeing as how Bulls are generally strong and well-built, it's no surprise that these folks enjoy testing their strength on the field of play. Expect to find a Bull engaged in a spirited game of hoops or mountain climbing. Hiking is also a favorite pastime, since it keeps Taurus close to their beloved earth. Indoor adventures are also favored by Bulls, which is why the opera or ballet is right up a Taurus's alley. When it comes to love, the Taurus-born are devoted, romantic and somewhat possessive. Their sensual nature has a way of erasing any mistakes! Since Taurus rules the neck and throat, Bulls would be wise to keep a silky scarf at hand, ideally in a warm (and soothing) earth tone.I like this paragraph, except I'm more a book reader than a contest participator. Also, I looooove scarves.
The great strength of Taurus is in their stability, loyalty and dogged determination. Bulls want to get the job done, and they will. What better way to get the riches they so fervently crave?