So I'm searching through my computer looking for all the correspondence that I've had with these people, and all this stuff pops up. Rereading it is painful but hilarious at the same time. There is so much energy in these words. There's tons of emotions in all of this writing and I find it incomprehensible that at one point I literally couldn't numb myself to all of this. The writing is incredibly extensive and painfully truthful, but at the same time we protected ourselves so fiercely. Honesty tempered with fear.
"You take care of everyone and keep everybody sane"
The word memorize pains me.
I'm not sure if thats how love is supposed to be. These days, it's a lot less dramatic, thankfully.
In any case, I've been feeling horribly melancholy today. Hence the pain and anguish. You may all carry on with your lives now!