Content

"Maybe it's not blood bonds who make us
a family.
Perhaps it's the people who know our secrets
and love us anyway
so we can finally be ourselves.
xoxo
Gossip girl."

I rarely have long periods of time
where I feel complete and whole
I'm always moving, always watching
and looking for more or different,
my content is in the hunt, not in the
catch.
But I find moments
where my eyes tear up
and
I find the moments where
I am content.

Content

I remember when my life felt like this. Ever wanting something more, never having enough. I loved how it was then, because I never knew what it was supposed to be. Did you know that it isn't supposed to be like that? You aren't supposed to be forever hoping when you are in love. Maybe you are hoping for a little different, but you think life is just perfect, because that's the best you've ever had.

And now, here's how I feel. Like I can fight and be angry and even batshit crazy and still be loved, forever, for who I am. Not longing anymore, but content.

Mmmmm. God, it's a nice feeling.

More soon.