Desire of an awkward nature

While I was there

I saw him

and a sudden longing hit me

and there it was

the wanting of someone 

you couldn't have

it hovers there now 

trying to make me go down roads

my mind and heart don't want to

So I do what I always do

be hostile to the people

I've wanted

Being nice has never 

been easy when all I'm doing

is thinking of fucking your brains out

and so I gave him the finger

while he followed me around my car

and then he surprised me

before I drove away,

he came up and 

said, you should smile more.

Entitled, pretentious ass.

Who are you to tell me to smile?

Why should I be positive

when all I'm thinking about is pulling you

into some dark corner?
So I called him an ass
and he asked
do you really think that?
And I said, maybe not
maybe you just annoy me.

My body betrayed me today

and left my tummy feeling all odd

I can't tell if you are being an ass

or if you want me

or if you have some odd fetish for trying to 

control women

and make them smile.

I can't tell your intentions

but your rough hands and

the way we bat words around

makes me want you

flat stomach

and scruffy face

and you are caught in my mind

at least the way I felt for the next two

hours is.

It was a tough call

whether I wanted to punch you

or pull you to me.

But I can't.

This is embarrassing

and I don't like it

I've restrained

and trained myself to not feel sexual

except in certain situations

and stupid body,

now you go and do this.

argh.

go away